"Choosing myself until it feels natural again"

Where do I begin? Let's start at the mantra itself - "Choosing myself until it feels natural again", this mantra came to my heart last year in the midst of relearning myself, my boundaries and honoring how my life is a life full of sacred choices. Honoring this mantra reminds me of grace in the process of evolving. It signifies that no matter the situation or environment - I do have a choice to decide if I will stay committed to something that is no longer serving me in the present moment. The BIGGEST aspect of this mantra - is recognizing that it's focused on the present, yes it may stem from past events and it may bring hope for the future BUT at it's core it is simply rooted in the question "how are my choices impacting me today and right now?" May I add - that it is uncomfortable and a bit uneasy to go from making choices based on others to confidently embracing the choices I make for myself. Especially because this may have also meant that I would be letting go of something I THOUGHT I never would be without. Choosing myself has allowed me to build trust with myself and to become keenly aware of how things feel in my body. It reminds me of when I was a child, engaging in something I wasn't supposed to and suddenly there was fear, overthinking and fast paced heartbeats as I thought of being caught. Now as an adult, these feelings still arise when I know I'm engaging in choices that aren't bringing me ease, joy or simply a peace of mind. It is a dishonor to my own self, to not believe that I have the power to make choices that cultivate peace, joy and ease in my life.

Choosing myself is an act of self love. Choosing myself is believing in my power. Choosing myself is embracing change and allowing myself to evolve. Choosing myself is honoring the grief while offering softness and truth to my existence. Choosing myself is a process.

I am capable of choosing myself and it is natural for me to do so.

Asé,

A.C.